Go.

It's been a few days since I've willed myself to write after the Panic attack. Though it's fine now, I still feel a little on-edge. As if it's still lurking somewhere in the back of my head, especially at work.

Even so, I've felt much better and though I don't want to have any record of admitting it, also a little bored.

Then again, those that know me know that these periods of Boredom are pretty permanent. Not the kind of bored that tells you to do something and it will disappear. It's the kind of boredom that sees no end, the one that you wake up in the morning to look forward to nothing. The kind that even if you jam pack your schedule to exhaustion, you'll still feel empty. It's that kind of boredom. Then again, I usually feel this, on a regular basis, But once in a while there's a little spark that takes my time.

Midnight Training
For a little it was Miraculous Ladybug but I've finished the first season so now until it returns, I'm obsessing over Pokemon Go, almost to the annoying level. I've used it as an excuse to go outside and look around for Pokemon. Yesterday night, Doug, my sister and I went to look around for Pokemon at the Stadium. It was really cool, there were actually quite a few people looking around for Pokemon as well eventhough it was 10 PM. We had hamburgers and took them back to my house, and sat in the front because someone had used Lure to lure them to the corner of my street. We weren't the only ones. I know alot of people think it's going too far, that people are doing unnecessary things, like walk around aimlessly and alone at 3am looking for a Pikachu. Although to a certain level I agree, people have to set their own limits and use their own common sense. This just brings it out of people alot more easy, Pokemon being childhood nostalgia for alot of us. I for one, love this game quite a bit, it's fun and it makes me want to go some places I wouldn't normally go, but I also wouldn't go to that many extremes just for it. Yesterday night, we were just chilling outside eating burgers and playing a game til midnight. I had company the whole time, I was sitting down, I wasn't walking around aimlessly. Cautiously looking around for any suspicious people. We never went near the Poke lures that were too suspicious looking (Then again, my city is pretty safe so there actually were none but we were taking precaution) or that weren't in public. It's pretty stupid honestly to think this game can be dangerous. Everything can be dangerous if you take it too far. For me, I just want to play this perfectly innocent game until I get bored of it.

Here's a few happenings of the week.
-I have successfully reached the limit of my  bank account. As in, I'm so broke. So broke. I haven't been this broke in a while. It's ridiculous how broke I am. I can't even buy a sandwich. Those are like two bucks. Omg.....
-Apart from Playing Pokemon Go, I've downloaded an app on my phone called Charity Miles. When I start the game up and I know I'm going to be walking for a little while, it allows me to donate money for the walking I'm doing to something like The Leukimia and Lymphoma society, Operation Smile, American Diabetes Association, ASPCA, St. Judes Childrens Research Hospital, (RED), Team Red, While and Blue, Girls on the Run, The Nature Conservacy, Special Olympics, Charity Water, etc. I've wanted to do this for a while, so I'm expecting to walk around alot more just for this~
-The one dude who confessed to me will not come around anymore rofl....
-The other one too....
-Saw a friend yesterday who also obviously had a crush on me and yeah this is getting a little ^^;;;;;;;;;
-On the other hand, I think I saw Superman yesterday but he didn't come around. So message received and taken.
-I haven't seen AU anymore either D: I'd feel sort of sad now if he left not because of feelings, but because we were just starting to become friends rofl (happens alot to me in life though so I wouldn't be surprised, I have been expecting him to leave for so long.)
-I HAVE BEEN LOOKING AT THIS PARTICULAR COMIC OF MIRACULOUS LADYBUG AND FUCKIN LAUGHING WHEN I'M AT WORK EVERY TIME I REMEMBER IT BECAUSE I HONESTLY CANNOT WITH ADRIEN AGRESTE AND HIS TERRIBLE CANON PUNS.
-I REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLY love Out of my life, from Kevin's solo Release fjskda;jf It's such a beautiful song, and I love the harmony between K and Kevin and jfdslkaj;fl sdIt's a beautiful song ;A; I'm very sad I wasted all my money (FOR NO REASON) in AX, because I really wanted to buy Kev's solo too sobs OTL So that's gonna have to wait.
-I told myself I'd do exercise this week. I told myself I'd eat healthy this week. It's only tuesday but I already fucked up by eating a hamburger rofl OTL
-I don't think I'll be able to attend school, AGAIN, this semester. I've procrastinated in my registration still and I'm sure smarter people have already finished OTL I haven't done ANYTHING beyond the online orientation OTL In the end, I think I deserve this........... But it's still annoying OTL OTL.....
-My entire life revolves around bad choices and things that I know I shouldn't do but do anyway and then I complain that life hates me when in reality, I'm making my own problems as I go. Sigh. I thought I was over this stupidity period. I guess not.
-On the other hand, I have been studying french on Duolingo and I'm not as terrible as I thought? I think I'll be able to read it. Speaking it though..... I leave much to be desired. Pronounciation is hard AF OTL OTL OTL
=I GAVE UP ON THE ALCHEMIST. I haven't picked it up in forever rofl OTL OTL

Anyway. I have work today. Yay.

Toodles.